The Vampire's Reflection
Every night as sure as silence,
Whilst Winter battles frost for fear,
I stare in to the mirror in darkness,
seeing nothing lying there.
That's all for tonight, I lie in a whisper,
My hands gripped around the ornate frame,
Desperate to see someone in the mirror,
eternal. reflected. perfect.
My haunted dark eyes, my pale skin,
Shivers down my spine, long and thin,
On my neck a cold echo blows,
Would my hair shine as black as a crow?
I pull the mirror, in a wrench from the wall,
And grasp it tight as darkness grows.
All I see as I draw the mirror close,
the face that's looking back at me,
Sunken eyes and crow black hair,
And skin as pale as death itself.
I spin around and with a crash,
I shatter the mirror to broken glass,
And on the floor bleeding dry,
Is a face I'd come to recognise.
-Jane Barron de Burgh
Not All There is a debut novel by Jane Barron de Burgh
If Claude's life was shaken by the death of his mother, it was turned upside down by her reappearance a week later. Claude and his sister Patience attempt to deal
with their mother returning from the dead whilst trying to avoid family drama.
Death, grief and eventually acceptance comes to us all but first it must come to Claude. Based on the author's own experiences, this is not your usual ghost
Get it here now for only £1.99
Monday 12th June
Creatively, Not All There, my soon-to-be-published debut novella, is too short to be accepted by trad-pub but it's not exclusion from other options which has me
turning to self-publishing as a final hope. Self-publishing doesn't have any hoops to jump through, no hoops except my own that is. Self-publishing allows me to follow my creative dreams, I don't
have to fit in to any genre, marketing scheme nor do I have to piggy-back any trends. Of course, this might mean I don't sell a copy, but I also don't have to listen to what anyone says. If I want to
kill off everyone of my characters then I've only got myself to blame when there is no sequel. Self-publishing brings independence in creative freedom.
Ecologically, e-books are the way forward, at least in my opinion, more and more people have access to kindles, iPads and tablets and it is getting easier and more comfortable to read on a screen.
I love the smell of a book, and the texture, I didn't think anything could replace it, in fact I was a bit of a snob about it, but it turns out when you're reading a good story it doesn't matter what
format it comes from. E-books are just as good a read as doorstoppers, and you can get Not All There, on kindle this July.
Print-on-demand is much more eco-friendly. Rather than trad-pub cutting down the brazillian rainforest to knock out 20,000 copies to readers that don't exist, print-on-demand does exactly what it
says on the tin. As soon as someone wants a copy, a copy is printed for them. No fuss, no hassle. There are no warehouses of lost and forgotten books never sold. Sure, you can't go in to Waterstones
and rearrange the displays so your book is at the top of every shelf, but I do all my shopping online anyway. Working in a fundraising shop, this is a particular bugbear of mine. I see so many second-hand books and even new books that are hardly touched go completely unread. I don't want to
contribute to this problem by printing more books no one wants to read. I'm all for the smell, touch and texture of a book but eventually I know what happens to it; it comes to me, sunbleached and
watermarked and I recycle it.
Economically I retain more of the royalties, that means the more hard work I put in directly correlates to what I'm paid. Unlike in trad-pub there is no advance so I have to work for every sale. This
also means I can budget to the amount of sales I have, for example, at the moment, maintaining this website is the cost of one sale a month. Anything I earn over that can be spent on more to do with
publishing, my writing, or whatever I want.
So that's the three most important reasons why I chose to self-publish. Let me know what you think!
Saturday 10th June
Nervous, excited, intimidated. Mostly I'm feeling out of my depth on my journey to self-publish. Right now there are so many decisions to make, how should my blurb read? What should my book cover
look like? And what on earth should I do for marketing? Luckily I have the support of internet communities such as k-boards and my Open University Writer's Club, but it still feels like a leap into
the unknown, no matter how many resources I read. And trust me I've been reading a lot, and listening to a lot of podcasts as well. I still feel as though I'm treading water.
I'm just glad that I've written Not All There. If I was also going through the struggle of writing this novella I don't know how I'd cope. I'm sure I'd just add it to my already unending to do list.
Speaking of my unending to do list; the satisfaction of marking things of the list is somewhat depleted when I insist on adding a dozen things on. Write now my main tasks are my book cover, (which
with the help of my designer Jorge, I should be able to show you soon) and understanding Kindle Unlimited.
That's all for now.